dreams

Recently been listening sound tracks from the drama series"fugitive plan b". i love all the songs, especially because of it fast rhythm and with a build up :) These song make me feel like i'm am at the top of the world, allows me to feel that all thing are possible, especially in doing the things that i love doing.

Yesterday i had a great time with God. It felt so good, sharing and saying what's really in my heart. I remember asking God, what i should be doing now. i feel totally not in what i should be doing. I remember how god assure me that it's alright, and then it is alright not to be "successful" as termed according to the world.
i remembered i asked God if its ok, if i do not do and chase after the things which are "normal" in this world. this could meant not finding a "decent" looking job in the future, not being successful in what others would say is "normal". i know it may not be easy not doing what "normal", there will be peer pressure, or stress that could make me waver my choice in the future. But i'll do my best and i do not mind the hardship that comes with it. i want to make sure the rest of my life, is doing something i really love, really enjoy and not doing what everyone things is "normal" and then keep doubting myself and being miserable with myself because i feel that i am not where i suppose to be. i remember how it feel good, how happy i was, there was a skip to every of my step, a joy that came to my face and a fire that came to my heart and eyes.

i know i do not know what the future holds or will bring me to. but i am sure there wil be great challenges ahead. i know i may waver and even stumble, but one thing for sure i know... that is that God is by my side, that He will guide me and lead me and off cos pull me back when i have gone wrong.
I know that i need to trust Him with all my life.

if there no such thing as reality and challenges, what will i do with my life?
what will i do?
i know i want to inspire and strengthened people.
to create a place or an organisation that allows people to learn, practise and use their talent. this is not just for the best people, but for everyone.
A place, a label, to push out talents, give a space for talent to be show. sponsor them. just like how other artist, would want to create their own label, open and teach the younger people whom are interested and give them an opening under their name and label to show their talent. i want to be able to do that.
i'm a very C person, a person who can be detailed, perfectionist and i love strategies. if there is something that could make use of all of that + helping people. i would be super happy.

It comes down to the point. how do i do that? i feel that i cannot even see what just 10m ahead of me.

fellowship

today had a wonderful day with xue er and lifang. we had dinner together and went shopping.

went to orchard and had a simple but good time.

it's time that i taking the next step forward

i have already started walking and moving on.

its just the next step.

it still feel hard when we all want to move on

i should not deny it

but i cun afford to give up

because of the people around me

because of the possibilities ahead

so i have to keep walking on

we all have to keep walking on

in church, pst have shared about the message he preached in the beginning.

personally, it was good. because, after hearing so much and coming back to the basic again.

help me to see everything in the perspective that it should be

got to understand more of what pastor is preaching

got to experience God

i have always experience God, thank God for that, no matter when it was

now i have learn to appreciate and come to God in a different way

and His presence is as strong as ever.

ps: welcome to zoe's dearest baby, anya!

PE day!

OMG its already 130am and they have not finish counting for presidential elections.

some more still need to recount!

pity my mum and clement who are part of the counting centers.

its so late!!!!

i need sleep soon!!!! tmr 9am JB lei!

yawn!

upcoming excitments

I cun wait!

Tmr service.....

fellowship with my friend!

JJJBBBB!!!

BBQ with vann!

ohhh....... plus the holidays because of election.

hmmm... i think i not at all excited for election.... more excited for the holidays.

A wonderful day

Today have been a very long day for me.

had lectures at 930am. i know for many, it not very early. but pardon me, i'm not a early person.

the lecturer was alright, but he was rather rushing through 2 chapters of lecture.

thank God i could understand roughly what he taught, but i guess i missed out alot of details.

this means more studying to do.

this year i really want to do well in university. this means allocating lots of time to study.

most importantly discipline!

all the way, alexis! i'm not going to give up.

left halfway from school, to meet my dad for lunch.

i must say i very glad to have my dad always beside me.

when i'm home, i know i'm not alone.

appreciate all the things my dad have done.

we went fish & co. its been a very long time.

i love the fish and chips.

glad to be able to spent time with my dad.

he is not getting younger.

went to see a specialist after that.

hoping that the reason for my pain in my hand and back will be finally revealed.

after a check, it is confirmed its nothing to do with joints or muscles.

but suspected its to do with nerve.

i believe it will heal and never come back again.

Lord, heal me. i believe in You.

i think toe doctor was more concerned about my neck and thyroid.

had a blood test taken!

I HATE blood test, and i believe many people will agree with me.

It is indeed painful, when the needle goes in and come out.

i did not dare to look at all.

OH MY, i dun wann anymore blood test.

so i really need good health.

Good health means i can do more things!

had a short fellowship with priss and really enjoyed it.

she is so cute and so sweet!

had lifegroup after that.

it was a wonderful time.

i think one thing that really spoke to me was that.

i can carry the armor of God, not needing to be afraid.

knowing the word of God for myself, what God really wants for me, what i really created for and knowing what God have given us - these are the truth of God.

God wants all of us to know Him personally, not just through a church , friend or even pastor.

He wants us to know that when we come to Him and choose to receive Him as our savior, we receive His authority , His grace, His blessing. we do not need to be afraid.

the second thing, is that i need to be a more focus person. may it be thoughts, seeking God ......

God i love you!

University life

It's my last semester for my university!

and i am very grateful.

looking back, it's really been God grace to allow me to go university.

i remembered being lost and amazed at how big the school was and i told myself i will do well.

Well, i must admit. school life haven been always alright. there were up's and down's. there were many times i did not do well in school. Many times in life, when we start something, we re always enthu' about it.

For me, i'm have learnt that no matter how hard things have become. We all have to walk on, keep on motivating ourself, keep on cheering ourself. There isn't a point in giving up, walking away or being hateful about it.

The art of motivating ourself is very important, because there is no one who can be around you 24/7 to motivate you. It comes for within.

So my wish for everyone, to never give up despite how hard things are, or how difficult things are, to keep on walking.

Aug 2011

I have decided to re-start my whole blog again.

The reason? It's very simple - In life, everything changes, we move on and we walk on.

I have move on.

I'm going to have fun here :))